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[20 Jan 2005|01:35am] haha, life's funny. you just have to laugh you know. suzannealcasid add it suzannealcasid suzannealcasid suzannealcasid suzannealcasid suzannealcasid 1 comment

[18 Jan 2005|02:21pm] ( pictures here. )

[16 Jan 2005|03:20pm] [ music | apples in stereo - glowworm ] last night was the first time we used my car in foreeeever.. okay not even that long but it feels like it. it's a great car. i want to marry it some day. we listened to old mix tapes from summer. ( here's some pictures from last night ), cause yeah i've been using my camera lately. i stole this bottle of tabasco from fat burger for some reason. i also stole a cd from borders for some reason. oh and i ate fries with ketchup last night. KETCHUP. 5 comment

[16 Jan 2005|12:19am] hello, last night i got a tiny bit fucked up. my spit tasted like a fun little mix of cookies, honey nut cheerios, vodka, red bull, weed, and orange juice this morning. ( friday pictures ) something about me. i'm really innocent, i'm naive, i'm kind of blind. i've never really suffered, i've never really lost anything, i'm filled with awe and wonder haha, i don't really know what "pain" is, when i miss people i get sad but it's like a naive sadness. i never know what i have, & i lose people easily because of this. every emotion is new to me even if i'd had it before, it's always different. i always know what i'm talking about, but at the same time, i never know what i'm talking about. 8 comment

ideal vs real [11 Jan 2005|07:54pm] i'm fucking everywhere, i can't get it together. i can't think about one thing at a time and nothing i think about is good so basically i'm thinking about multiple horrible things at the same time. i'm really everywhere i don't want to be. it's insane. it's like ONE OF THOSE THINGS where you don't know whether or not you're improving and it turns out you're going in circles. BIG circles. and there's something you can never ever ever ever have. just because. comment

people [07 Jan 2005|04:07pm] [ music | built to spill ] some people get really hostile when you try to take their picture. ( 30 PICTURES ) my parents are throwing a giant party this saturday. this means idle j.d. and idle beer and people i haven't seen in a while who might give me money for past birthdays and their children who might try to beat me up because they hate my guts. it's my parents' & my sister's birthday thing cause they were all born in january. it's like a big year for everyone. my parents both turn 50 (HOLY SHIT, right?), my sister turns 16, and i turn 18. p.s. i know some you people dislike some of the people in these pictures... please forgive me! cause i love you :[ 13 comment

[06 Jan 2005|11:15pm] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | in the mouth of a desert - pavement ] ( afrika bambaataa ) i got my stylus verve today yay. last night i slept for 12 hours, 6:30pm-6:30am and awoke to an earthquake. some fat chick wasn't watching where she was going and stepped on my foot. there's like this burn thing there now. yum. hm i have lots of other things to say but i don't really feel like saying anything. if i do, i'll be a.)breaking my resolution or b.)wasting precious time. SO. goodbye. i luv u all plz don't forget me! 12 comment

RACCOON [05 Jan 2005|01:35am] 13 comment

[01 Jan 2005|05:29pm] i just got off the phone with amber*. we decided that my new year's resolution is to finish quade. god, 4+ years of shit. it's going to be fucking amazing. and embarrassing. my other resolution is to not have to go to a junior college if i can help it. my third resolution is to find somebody who i won't get sick of and i can let myself get attached to but that one is on the bottom of my list. my other resolution is to keep my secrets to myself and never talk about my feelings :) have a nice year *i decided i'm going to stop talking about memories and start making new ones. 3 comment

[01 Jan 2005|03:42pm] ( top 5 gifs ) 9 comment

[31 Dec 2004|09:04pm] 2004: getting drunk at the drive-in a bunch of times sneaking my car out going to the beach getting lost in l.a. every time committing a hit-and-run with amber getting away with a lot of shit at the beginning of the year not getting away with anything towards the end amazing halloween amazing christmas new york city having to pushstart edward's truck having to jumpstart my car.. twice in the same night.. drunk being a jerk to guys completely losing touch with sarah, alexis, maria, etc. um i guess being a jerk period. mixtapes for my car coldstone down the street from portofino being v.i.p. at moving units moving to chino a lot of "firsts" new people same people not visiting the tree the whole year not going to the creek, not even once palm springs driving home from edward's house alone often camping moldy apartment getting sick of people easily the desert new bad habits sneaking into disneyland catching the flu a lot passing out on anthony's rock-hard guestroom bed random visits from dustin and matt at portofino! matt and dustin saying embarrassing but cute things in a drunken state "I took a picture of your vomit in the trashcan. It looked like white seashells and pearls." ew anthony filming the big orgy scene that one girl's going away party at the park drinking cheap wine and drawing naked figures in the sand and playing "a little princess", i just remember that cause it was like the last time anthony was really cool to me ditching class with maria going up on the hill and watching the sun set amber taking too many pills and having a fit and throwing up all over my car courtney paying fat guy $5 to kick edward's ass getting taken in by the cops for "trespassing" "being out past curfew" and noel's "underage smoking" stealing that GIANT plank of wood off the side of the road in woodview on valentine's day for some reason edward giving that gay guy matt (edward's bf) a little candy heart with my number on it at red robin on valentine's day awwwww how cute finding all those boxes outside of coldstone and sledding down piles of gravel with them and being robots oh my god hahahaha that was so funny videotaping chris as a drag queen and lisa as a vampire in the girl's bathroom at borders. weird day. free cheese sticks at red robin sneaking into the glasshouse every time confirmation teeheehee apc/the mars volta with Richard Ramirez aka the night stalker, and dying hanging out with pgmg and sitting in that hammock with that creepy guy from oregon. i get so creeped out easiy. "ma mouf is thry can you giff meh a thrink" "im going to burn you wiff mah thigarette!!!!" kissing on the grass under the stars at the park in the middle of the night hollywood with matt and amber and amber having a seizure in the macdonald's bathroom having like, a TRILLION crushes at the beginning of the year and being happy and then feeling really low and depressed and alone towards the end of the year hahahah :( meeting people i don't regret meeting amber and i making a giant "CONGRATULATIONS ALADDIN" sign out of paper towels and ketchup during/for edward's graduation ceremony meeting bobby who is like the best friend i ever met from online i think i had the best time before i turned 17 in august when my parents started catching me in lies. cause now i just don't feel motivated enough to lie as well as i used to. oh well. it's gonna be fucking good this year. i'll add to the list as i think of things. ( 2004 ) the pictures don't do the year any justice at all. who has time to take pictures when you're having a good time. most of the good things happened in the beginning. if it's gonna be the same for 2005 then i'm excited. i'm kissing myself at midnight. it'll be perfectly normal. 24 comment

[26 Dec 2004|05:32am] "Thoughts are the shadows of our sensations - always darker, emptier, simpler than these." comment

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